It's been a while since I've written anything down in here, so I guess it's time to do that again! Lol.
A LOT has happened. First off, I quit my job. I couldn't take that devil woman anymore. The last straw was when I lost my name tag. I had a spare, so I brought it into work and one of the managers would have to switch me over to that name tag. All you have to do is find the employees name and enter 4 numbers, so it shouldn't be a problem. But apparently it was a huge problem. I told my immediate supervisor and she had to page one of the assistant managers to change it for me and they both refused. That was problem one. So, I see Ms. Moore walking around the corner, so I nicely ask her to change it for me. Instead of a simple yes or give me just a moment please she laughs at me, rolls her eyes and says "Maybe, I'll think about it." That and her treatment of me all the way up to her office was ridiculous. I almost walked out that day, but I was like no, I need my job. So, I stayed and though about it for my next two days at work and then quit the next day I worked. I decided I wasn't going to work in a place where you're not even respected for the job you do. Especially the job I had. Without us, the place would fall apart. We're front end managers. We are in charge of the ENTIRE front of the store. Every employee who is a cashier/bagger. All customer service. All the money. EVERYTHING. So, I was finished. I drove to the mall right across the street to visit my friend at work and told him all about it. The manager there overheard and handed me an application, scheduled me an interview, then hired me right after the interview was finished. It was awesome. I applied at Borders a few days later and the next day they called me for an interview. I just finished the second interview yesterday and am supposed to hear back from them by tomorrow if I got the job or not.
Also, why I'm able to have 2 jobs, I decided to withdraw from my classes at school this semester because wasn;t concentrating and I didn't see a point in going and bringing down my GPA if I wasn't fully comitted. So, I'm taking this time off to save money and think about my life and get it together, then I'm going back to school next semester. I just don't know if I'll be full time or not. It depends.
So, life has been hectic.. but it's not been bad. I'm pretty ontop of things right now and it;s nice.
Went to a Hank III show with a few friends on Monday. It was so much fun! I haven't been to a show in soooo long I forgot what it was like. I also made a new friend that night too. His name is Brett and he's pretty cool. Went with him to a party last night. It was a mutual friend of our's party. He deemed it Whiskey Fest. Haha. Needless to say, I drank way too much. 9 or 10 shots I think. It was fun though.
Hm... anything else? Ben and I are supposed to be taking a trip to Nashville for a few days next month, I'm excited. It's going to be a good time for us to just spend time with each other away from every one else before he ships out. 2 months left.. it's getting really scary. He made me watch this movie with him last night called Taking Chance. And it's about a marine who accompanies a fallen marine's body home to his family. I almost cried like 8 times. It was a good movie though. Just, makes you worry you know... It was based on a true story where they were out on a routine patrol and the guy wasn't supposed to be on patrol that day, but he went anyway because all of his friends were out on that patrol and he wanted to be with them. Well, he was up in the turret or whatever (exactly what Ben is going to be doing when he goes there) and they ran over a roadside bomb and every one was fine, but they got ambushed and dude died protecting his friends. And at the end it showed a picture montage of the real guy and I just couldn't watch it. But, if any of you get the chance to see it, do. It's great.
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Mraaaaoooo.
Anyway. Idk. Haha.
I am sooooo incredibly happy. Lol.
I love being able to say that.
Soooo... Monday I was really really sick after not feeling so well the previous week. I was afraid to eat anything for fear it would come right back up. I tried desperately to find someone to cover my shift at work, but no one could. So, I had to go in because if I tried to call in my manager would have said "come in or I'll fire you" or "if you don't come back with a doctor's note, I'll fire you" and I don't have the money to go see the doctor, so yeah. I miserably went to work. I was there for 3 hours and then Faye let me go home. I was so happy. So, Ben told me I needed to eat something and that something should be soup. So, he picked me up from work and we went to McAlister's and I had some soup and started feeling better. Then, we went to WalMart cause Ben needed something and said he wanted to spend more time with me. Sooo we left McAlister's. The song "With Me" by Sum 41 was on, one of Ben's favortie songs, and he was singing... and he stopped.. and looked at me and says.. you know, this feels right.. and he grabs my hand and just looks at me and I smiled and said yeah... it does. And he goes.. I was thinking about that last night.. and I said.. yeah I was thinking about that too the other day while we were randomly sitting on my kitchen floor... and that day that we sat on my kitchen floor forever and talked was amazing. There was this moment, that I don't think I'll ever forget, that I looked up at him and he looked down and me and we caught each other's eyes and smiled. And just the way he looked at me.. I can't describe it, but something just clicked... and I think I fell irreversarly, completely, totally in love with him. I thought I was in love with him before, and I was, but this.. this is much deeper. And.. it's wonderful.
Anyway. Idk. Haha.
I am sooooo incredibly happy. Lol.
I love being able to say that.
Soooo... Monday I was really really sick after not feeling so well the previous week. I was afraid to eat anything for fear it would come right back up. I tried desperately to find someone to cover my shift at work, but no one could. So, I had to go in because if I tried to call in my manager would have said "come in or I'll fire you" or "if you don't come back with a doctor's note, I'll fire you" and I don't have the money to go see the doctor, so yeah. I miserably went to work. I was there for 3 hours and then Faye let me go home. I was so happy. So, Ben told me I needed to eat something and that something should be soup. So, he picked me up from work and we went to McAlister's and I had some soup and started feeling better. Then, we went to WalMart cause Ben needed something and said he wanted to spend more time with me. Sooo we left McAlister's. The song "With Me" by Sum 41 was on, one of Ben's favortie songs, and he was singing... and he stopped.. and looked at me and says.. you know, this feels right.. and he grabs my hand and just looks at me and I smiled and said yeah... it does. And he goes.. I was thinking about that last night.. and I said.. yeah I was thinking about that too the other day while we were randomly sitting on my kitchen floor... and that day that we sat on my kitchen floor forever and talked was amazing. There was this moment, that I don't think I'll ever forget, that I looked up at him and he looked down and me and we caught each other's eyes and smiled. And just the way he looked at me.. I can't describe it, but something just clicked... and I think I fell irreversarly, completely, totally in love with him. I thought I was in love with him before, and I was, but this.. this is much deeper. And.. it's wonderful.
I am silent.
I hold the secrets far down in my heart that you have told me and asked me never to repeat.
I think back to when you told me.
The future, I think of often.
I read. I worry. I sit. I think. I wonder.
A mystery.
I have never liked mysteries.
I do not like the unknown.
I want it all lain out in front of my, to read and interpret.
To accept. To cope. To feel happiness, sadness, despair, jubilation.
But, alas.
So, I sit. In darkness.
Confused, lost, ill-prepared.
Am I strong enough?
And is what I'm preparing myself for what I really want?
I hold the secrets far down in my heart that you have told me and asked me never to repeat.
I think back to when you told me.
The future, I think of often.
I read. I worry. I sit. I think. I wonder.
A mystery.
I have never liked mysteries.
I do not like the unknown.
I want it all lain out in front of my, to read and interpret.
To accept. To cope. To feel happiness, sadness, despair, jubilation.
But, alas.
So, I sit. In darkness.
Confused, lost, ill-prepared.
Am I strong enough?
And is what I'm preparing myself for what I really want?
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